Tuesday, September 30, 2008

:: the poverty of Sabahans ::

I received an email from my friend Philicica, and i feel the need to share this story in my blog.. ^_^ this is a really important and heartbreaking but true story.. i myself have seen with my own two eyes, the conditions of poverty here while growing up in Sabah..

This letter/story was a response to a MalaysiaKini Article, titled "Kota Marudu needs more than wireless Internet" in Sept 5th, 2008.

A story by a West Malaysian doctor, posted in Kota Marudu, Sabah.

I read Dr Hams letter and cannot help but agree with many of his observations. I worked in Sabah for over seven years as a house officer and medical officer. After my housemanship, I was sent to Ranau to serve in the district hospital. What Dr Hams described in Kota Marudu is not something isolated to that district alone in Sabah. It is an often repeated story in the whole of Sabah.

My first introduction to the poverty in Sabah came during my first months there, when a sweet 70- year-old lady from Kota Marudu was sent to the Queen Elizabeth Hospital with deep jaundice. She lived alone in a small village off Kota Marudu and noticed the jaundice about a month before.

She had no money for the taxi fare and so waited a month to sell off her chickens to have enough money to pay RM50 for the transport to Kota Marudu Hospital. She had to walk two miles to get to the road to get to the taxi.

Having been born, bred and educated in Peninsular Malaysia, I was shocked. When she arrived, she was septic and had a gallstone lodged in her common bile duct. The stone was duly removed but she was found to have a heart problem that required a pacemaker. We arranged for her to get a permanent pacemaker but she refused.

When I pressed her for her reason, she told me that she couldn't afford to buy batteries for the pacemaker, having sold off her chickens. Once I explained to her that the batteries would last for years and we would provide them, she agreed to the pacemaker.

Ranau town itself has roads and is on the main highway between Sandakan and Kota Kinabalu. It developed primarily as a result of the Mamut Copper Mines in the district. However, highway in this context means a two lane road with frequent landslides and potholes, with a two-hour drive to Kota Kinabalu.

Outside Ranau, transportation becomes a problem as tarred roads disappear to become gravel or crudely marked logging trails. Anyone who has worked in Sabah would have the same stories to tell, of extreme poverty and poor transportation.

During my 2 years in Ranau, I've heard and seen it all, patients with cerebral malaria, a condition unheard of in Peninsular Malaysia, coming in after 48 hours to the hospital from places like Kaingaran and Karagasan, with relatives having to push the 'pirate taxi' through the mud, spending RM50 on fare during the monsoon season, the equivalent of 2 months income, this too when petrol was only around RM1.20 a litre in Ranau.

Patients having to delay treatment for life threatening conditions because a bridge washed away along the trail (I won't even call it a road) to Tambunan. Emergency surgery such as caesarian sections, appendectomies and even ectopic pregnancies had to be performed in our little district hospitals by Medical Officers with little more than 4 months housemanship experience.

Medical emergencies such as myocardial infractions, which in Peninsular Malaysia would be managed in a Coronary Care Unit setting, had to be managed in the district hospital level. I'm grateful however, that my staff in that hospital were the best I've ever had the pleasure of working with and were dedicated enough to want to make a difference in their patients' lives.

But poor transportation does not only affect the access to health care. Having no roads to be able to transport their agricultural produce for sale means that these people are stuck in a never ending cycle of poverty.

At most, some of them get RM20 to RM50 by selling their produce to middlemen to be sold at the monthly tamu or market at prices that are perhaps only 10 percent of the value of the goods. These innocent people are also preyed upon by traveling cloth merchants, mostly foreigners, who offer them 'easy payment schemes' to buy cloth for clothes, and when they cannot pay for the cloth and the interest accumulates, they end up having to marry their daughters to these men, who often have wives back home in Pakistan.

One of the cases I could never forget was of the family who came to Ranau Hospital just as I was leaving, a family who had failed crops, were hungry and unable to get food. The father collected some toad eggs and fed them to the whole family in a desperate attempt to stave off hunger. When they arrived at our little emergency room, one of the children were dead and two passed away within 10 minutes of arrival in our casualty unit due to poisoning.

Education is a problem in parts of Sabah outside major towns like Kota Kinabalu at the moment. Many children would be lucky to be able to get to a school or even afford to get to one. Most of my patients outside Ranau were lucky to even have a primary school education and a vast number of women marry in their teens.

I've had 14 year olds delivering babies in Ranau, most of them have never ever stepped foot in a school. The education level is so poor that many women feed their children condensed milk thinking that it's better than breast milk.

But at the heart of it all, these mothers want the best for their children but are not empowered with the knowledge to help them. Major towns in Sabah have electricity courtesy of the Sabah Electricity Board, but smaller villages have either diesel generators or rely on candles or lamps when night falls.

How can children study in these conditions? Like many doctors in the districts, I had to learn Dusun to communicate better with these patients who could speak little else.

Forty five years after the formation of Malaysia, the promise of a better life for these poor Dusun, Murut and Rungus patients in the districts of Sabah is a pipe dream at best. How can our politicians claim to have brought development to the state and have neglected these poor people, many of whom still wear the cheap t-shirts and caps given free by political parties from many elections ago.

How can I claim to be proud of Putrajaya with it's beautiful bridges and lamp posts and the Petronas twin Towers when our fellow Malaysians in Sabah are so neglected?

The cycle of poverty and illiteracy one sees in the districts in Sabah brings despair to the heart. Eradication of poverty must tackle the real issues of education and transport and not just handouts to poor people.

By all means, declare Sept 16th a public holiday, but remember it in it's real context, where we made a promise to our brethren in Sabah and Sarawak to treat them as equals in Malaysia, and give them the development they've been long denied.


Mood: complacent
Muse: paper planes - m.i.a

Saturday, September 27, 2008

:: marvick's job posting ::

I just got word from Marvick (my love) about his job posting yesterday afternoon.. He's going to have to work in Lahad Datu for at least 1 year, or probably more than that.. T_T *depressed* since then, i've been down and sad.. but i'm still ok..

Edit: he's going to start working at Lahad Datu next week.. he's reporting for duty on Monday (Sept 29th) and he's going to Lahad Datu tomorrow morning.. T_T

I'm going to miss him so badly.. *sniffs* Why!!? I love him so much!! but he has to work so damn far away! i can't see/kiss/date him every weekend anymore! f**k!!!!! *angry* .. i'm feeling a lot of helplessness and frustration right now.. i'll have to vent out my sadness and anger some outlet somewhere soon.. my mind is so messed up right now.. *sighs*

Sora x Kairi
- I love you so much, Marvick.. -


oh well.. i'll just see this as an obstacle/challenge that is being directed at our relationship and our hearts.. *takes a deep breath, and exhales* ^_^
Mood: very upset, but ready to fight..
Muse: No Air - Jordin Sparks ft. Chris Brown

Monday, September 15, 2008

:: facebook blood games ::

Argh!!! FACEBOOK IS EVIL! T_T
*hopeless cries*


I've been spending my time online Facebooking. *sighs* Facebook's game applications are so highly damn addictive. I thought that i might try a few games and it'll faze out, like how it only lasted a month for me in Hatchlings. But recently i've started playing Dungeons & Dragons: Tiny Adventures, and the Blood Games (Elven Blood, Blood Lust, Skies of Blood, City of Blood) that has occupied most of my free time 7 days a week.. T_T

Its been a month already, and i'm still stuck to the game.. my blog, my animes, and my movies are left in the corner of the room.. *sobs* Oh well, i'll just keep playing until i get tired of trying to level up and getting item drops.. *goes to Facebook*

desperate monologue at night:
must!.. keep.. playing.. need.. more.. coffee!
Mood: addicted to Facebook
Muse: Ne-yo - Closer

Monday, September 1, 2008

:: jade opening ::

i just came back from Jade's opening at Api Api Centre. There were quite a number of people gathered at the Jade. ^.^ my sis, Audrey, was in charge of Jade and me, my sis Roslyn, my bro Junior, and my sis-in-law Vicky went there to support! XD!

Event: JADE (Pub Cafe) Opening Event
Time Starts: Sunday, Aug 31, 2008 at 6.00 pm
Time Ends: Monday, Sep 1, 2008 at 2.00 am
Location: 3-1-1, Block 3, 1st floor, Api-api Centre, KK.



I met quite a lot people, mostly were Aud's friends, a lot of people i met during the SBG event and some of my high school schoolmates. XD There was the Astro guy, who did the "don't play-play" avoid piracy ad too. =.= also, i met Jefferson and Thiru..

The event went great! with the food on the snooker table and the beers in the buckets, the place was quite lively. After a while, people starting cheering and yam-seng around. Malcolm did a few rounds of karaoke and the music played by band for the night was good. Later around 10-11 (i din't look at my watch! :P) there was a surprise birthday cake for Audrey! Her birthday was on August 19th, so it was a belated birthday cake. Nevertheless, i was glad that Audrey was enjoying her self and had a great time.

will come up with the pictures soon. *yawns* i gotta sleep.. had a some alcohol (baileys + tiger beers) and the sleepiness is kicking in. good night (eh.. good morning) and sweet dreams~

Happy 51st Merdeka Day!!!

Mood: sleepy (will pengsan/sleep onto the keyboard any time now)
Muse: coldplay - viva la vida